GAH! I am so sick of being fat and addicted to food. Yeah, addicted. Every time I try to lose weight I go through the same anguish I did when I quit smoking. The anger, anxiety, and the lying to myself and others, it’s all there!
I have tried many ways to lose weight and some have worked really well, but only for a relatively short period of time.
This is such a horrible place to be and I hate it.
I don’t want to be like Celia Hodes but I will not let Jonah be a fat kid, and don’t you think for a second that is a mean/bad thing to say. Sure there are tons of happy fat people (no pun intended), but you cannot argue for one second the health consequences of the added weight a lot of Americans carry around. I have to lose this weight soon so I can really stress the importance of fitness without being a hypocrite.
If I ever want to lose weight and keep it off I need to start eating real food. No counting calories while eating food that is a mass of glued back together mystery ingredients. I need to eat real, fresh, natural food. The problem is getting me to the point where I can easily make the right decisions… This won’t be an easy journey, but over time I think I can do it… First step is to stop drinking soda again. From now on nothing but water and unsweet tea for me. Now to figure out the food part…